HOW MOTHERHOOD HAS CHANGED ME ….

Motherhood is the most beautiful journey in a women’s life.Its a journey that many women are either embracing or on the way or dream about embracing. Motherhood was one dream I was sure i wanted to fulfill.Being a mother is a wonderful experience,which cannot be expressed in words, you need to be a mother to know how beautiful it is…how light and happy you will feel.Being a mother changes who you are. Truly a bliss filled journey .

Motherhood is not a job nor is it a sacrifice but an honour , a privilege and mostly a blessing. I don’t believe being a mother is a non paid 24×7 job.I feel its the most selfless act  from a women.we dont actually sacrifice anything we just prioritise..even if we did we get back happiness that’s more valuable than all the sacrifices we have made for the baby.

Yes, for this child I prayed my heart out. Becoming a mother was not that easy for me. I had lots of hurdles between me and motherhood. I had two miscarriages due to cervical incompetence before having my son. Until my pregnancy I was blessed through out my life with great childhood..education..life partner..in laws…over all complete happy life…but with my pregnancy my blessings stopped.God decided to break off with me for sometime just so that i  realise how important being a mother is…After i had realised and prayed God blessed me with my rainbow baby boy who bought back all the happiness and joy in to my life. He makes me feel alive .Each day i count my blessing which is more today than yesterday and even more tomorrow than today…

Motherhood has changed me a lot. From the time my son Riaan was born i am no longer the older me.I am a lot better person than i was before(not that i was bad before).Having my son gave new meaning to my life.

The moment I heard his cry for the first time, i knew there and then my life has changed forever. I am no longer just a woman, a doctor to the world but i am a” Mommy”.Motherhood gave me this new identity which i proudly flaut…way better and achieved harder than just being a Doctor.

Motherhood has made me see life in a new perspective. I started appreciating smallest of the smallest things .Life suddenly has become worth living forever. I now want to see my son grow,his family and be there for him always.

I am a more positive person. Each day I wake up to  his big eyes,chubby cheeks, smile,giggles and my fav fluffy bum!…what more do you want to make your day happier and filled with positivity. The most amazing sound in the world is my sons infectious laughs.I don’t see the bad in anything anymore..but instead i see what i can do to make this better.

I am an abyss of patience now. This is not my find but people who surround me has described. I remember getting angry with my mom for the silliest reasons I could find. I used to get irritated for everything, but now i have so much patience.i ve learned to let go.

Now I understand , appreciate and love my mother more. I now know what unconditional love actually means. Mothers love is so different from any other form of love .It’s so pure and makes your heart beat faster and burst with all the love.I have never had my heart filled with so much love that it ll burst anytime.When i see my son laugh or giggle my heart smiles too..its a feeling that all mothers can relate to.

Something that was gross and gag inducing is no more gross.Smell of poop or seeing a soiled diaper used to make me nauseous before i became a mother. Now it’s so normal. Now if Baby pooped,or vomited its just clean and toss.I dont even feel disgust even when i see other kids do it too.

Before motherhood I was never a children friendly. I used to find it irritating when a baby cries in a flight etc.I used to find kids naughty, fussy, stubborn and messy…but now all the children of the world has suddenly become mine. I now sympathise with the mothers and love all the kids to bits now.I find them cute, silly , adorable….

Messy and no make up is my new style mantra.  After my son was born I don remember a day i don’t sport a messy bun and no make up look..in fact i was always in this.I am a fashion and make up lover. Before motherhood i never left my house without make up.

I don’t need Jimmy Choo just any shoe is enough now. I was obsessed with   shoes or any kind of footwear collection.I used to choose my footwear according to my outfit before, but now i am always in a flip-flop be it shopping, hospital visits , park or home .Gone are the days when shoes or footwear ruled over me.

Now shopping was more about my baby. His comfort and fashion mattered. For myself its jus some dress which doesn’t flaunt my flabs will do now.Gone are the days when shopping was fun, hours long and exciting.I must have spent half of my 20s in shopping malls.Now there is no time..baby needs to sleep…he needs to be fed..he is not comfortable …all these mattered more than my attire.

Timeline has changed so much now. Before becoming a mother i could get ready and leave home in less than 15 mins time, but now i need to feed the baby, clean, cloth him, prepare his feed, pack his stuffs, take his stroller, put him in , he starts to cry …take him out …pacify .again put him in…then leave home. I can’t leave home with a baby without at least 1 hour prior notice.Now i can even shower in less than 5 minutes time…

Future is more important now. Before motherhood I used to live for the moment. Now i am concerned about budgeting  and saving money for the future…I now worry about spending unnecessarily.

Life is no longer me now. I now have a constant round the clock companion…my son. He there when I change my clothes,bathe, use the bathroom,  cook, clean, read, eat, go out, everywhere…he is with me . Now my world is him and his mine. I have no me time …but i love and enjoy the us time more.

I love moms company more than my unmarried or not yet mom friends. I can totally relate to moms,  even they find it easy with me. I have nothing to share other than my parenting stories,  my mess, my poop stories etc.I cannot imagine having to discuss my baby’s poop story with my other unmarried or not yet mom friends..they will stop seeing me .

Holidays are also baby friendly now. Before the baby it was over night decisions,  packing and we are on vacay! Now its more complex.i am no longer carefree and never take weekend trips on a whim. We need to see if climate suits the baby..travel time..place..how many days…etc etc etc.So in short less vacay or no vacay.

I am more confident and feel so beautiful inside.I don’t hide my c-section scars anymore..they are memories tattooed forever …i am proud of my stretch mark..it shows how strong and beautiful my body was to make a life and nurture it inside me.I know i am a confident and an amazing mother.

Now I dont expect people to show gratitude or appreciate my parenting ways or me spending my time and energy on the baby. I know being a mother is an invisible job.No one will appreciate or care much about me …but why bother when i know for this  sweet Lil  human, I am the only thing that’s visible.

No sleep mode is on since I became a mother. I must have hardly slept through out the night ever since..but i have no complaints…i know all these sleepless nights are worth a lot more.More than me sleeping..babys sleep is important.I am more like a mombie now.
Multitasking is my forte now.I can cook clean , baby care, eat all at the same time.I can study while holding him to sleep… I can feed a baby and post and comment on instagram at the same time..ta da….I can cook and play with him …i can catch a falling child and sip my coffee at the same time…i have perfected multitasking.

I love my life more than I did before. For the first time i am truly content.i lost myself but found a newer me that i am happier and more content with.as a mother you constantly need to search your soul for strength and learn more in the process.

This post is a part of the blog train- 2 started by Pooja Kawatra of Mums & Babies where she has brought together mothers from across the globe. Do read her blog post on How Motherhood has changed me – http://www.themumsandbabies.com/2017/09/how-motherhood-has-changed-me/ and more on the blog train here.

I want to thank Mamtha Dilip of   http://allaboutmommying.com for introducing me and I invite the lovely Disha Bandhari to board the train with me to share her valuable views on the same.

Disha is a photographer,blogger,entrepreneur and an amateur everything.Mother of an 11 month old baby girl virtually popular as #BabyHashtag .Disha is a fairly funny person but she is also her biggest critic which is why she is pretty hard on herself.Being a mum has changed her personality a lot.head over to her blog tomorrow to read how.

Read Here: http://www.hashtagdisha.wordpress.com